Sometimes you want to win a losing battle. Sometimes you want something you can’t never have. Sometimes we hold on to something that was never ours in the first place. But what if.. what if it was never really meant for you? What if the thing you want to fight for doesn’t even give a shit about you? What if everything that is everything to you doesn’t really mean anything at all. How will you tell yourself it’s over? How will you tell yourself that it’s time for you to give it all up? To move on and to start a new chapter of your life. How? When all you really want was that something you can’t have and hold. And everything just seems impossible. And this is what I feel right now, I feel like I’m stuck in a labyrinth, full of questions and thoughts.
I don’t know anything anymore. I don’t know how to define me faking a smile or a genuine one. I go with the flow. I don’t go with my choices no more, well, I don’t have a choice to choose I guess. I don’t understand. And I feel like all that’s happening in my life right now doesn’t mean anything at all, and so plain. I just don’t understand. I don’t. I’m getting weird. :/